Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Rollercoaster...Up Down Up Down

So January is over, for all intensive purposes (my wife loves when I say that) and I am still plugging along with my workouts like a elephant going through a mudhole. I am not sure what my deal is but I can't seem to stay motivated. I have the "want to" in my mind, but physically I am sucking.

I want to know this answer...

As I wrote earlier, me and my bride are both signed up for  the Memphis Runner's Track Club Winter Cross Country Series. So far we have completed the 3K and the 5k trail runs. The 3K was a very cold day and was fun. It really felt good to get outside and run instead of being on the dreadmill. It was also the first time my wife had done a trail run, so that was cool. Two weeks after the 3K, we did the 5K. It was the muddiest, sloppiest run I have done in awhile. It was also the slowest 5K EVA! but we had fun.
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The next days though, no running, no biking, no swimming, just eat, eat and eat!

I swear I am the heaviest I have been in years and I do not like it, but I am not doing much about it except writing it on my blog (much to often too) I do not know why I can't get focused. I know my running sucks cause my knees hurt when I run (because I am heavier than I have ever been). I know I should stop drinking Dr. Peppers (like the one I am drinking now), I know I need to get a plan and stick to it instead of changing it every time it gets tough. I do what I don't want to do (Biblical reference, know it?), and that is why I am frustrated.

I do not feel like myself.

I know what to do and what not to do, but I can't seem to get a grasp on either one. I feel like I am on a rollercoaster and this is new for me, and I don't like it.

One reason I started this blog was to keep me motivated and accountable. Sometimes it is just a place to vent and sometimes it is a place to call myself out. A lot of times when I am writing a post, it gets me fired up (you'd think I would write more huh?), so my posts will be all over the map, so for the one or two of you reading, thanks, I appreciate it. I know I will someday get out of my pity party, but for now, you get what I am thinking about!

Thanks, Happy January!

P.S. By my nest post, I hope to have enough runs in to do a review on my Hokas, or that's my goal!


  1. I could have written this post for most of my tri career. I honestly think the only reason I am being consistent these days is that I now have a coach that I am accountable to. Knowing he has taken me on as a project (he coaches one athlete free every year) and that he is checking up on me and giving me feedback, has made me get by butt out of bed and get after it. Maybe find some way to be accountable to someone? Its the only thing that has worked for me after 7 years.

    1. That is awesome you have a coach! Maybe I will look into it

  2. Mate,

    It has been forever since I last posted as i got totally caught up in training (for the half and then full) and life and a new job but that has not stopped me popping by to see how you are going!

    Sorry to read you are in struggle town but know that you will overcome and get back on top! You just need to cut yourself a little slack and focus on the small wins and gradually the small wins will grow into larger and larger wins. There is no benefit in beating yourself up as it will only lead to more frustration. It is all about the wins regardless of size...

    I second what Kathryn said about a coach - i used a dedicated (3rd party - outside of my tri club) coach for my IM and LOVED it...felt my strongest and fittest and it sure did keep me accountable...

    Keep strong will overcome!

    1. small wins is a great measurement that I need to start using.


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